God is in control.

today someone asked me and rosie which one of us is older..... shes 14 and im 20. he guessed i was 16. everyone always thinks im like 15-17. oi.

dude... there is nothing better than cousin time. me and rose are having a sick day. it started with cuddling followed by oatmeal and time in the Word, then barnes and nobel, coffee bean, and a few minutes chillin at the cross.... and now we just got back from a sick trail run. God knows just what our soul needs.

oh.. random side note.. today when i was at barnes and nobel i realized something. while i was spending eternity looking at art books.. i realized that art (or the arts in general) is one of the only things that shuts up my thoughts for a second. most of the time i cant focus on anything because my brain and heart are running a million miles and hour... but the second i engage in any kind of art my mind and soul are immediately still and quiet. it feels soooo goooooooooooood. i don't find that in many things. nature sometimes... but otherwise... art is very unique in that sense.

Israel

adskjfhsdi dfkjh vdfsifh dsoi fii issrael!!!! I want to go back sooo badddd! I love it there.

i think when obedience gets really hard... it is a reflection of my major lack of trust and faith.

immmmmmmmm.................. a walking disaster today.

sunday night blues

camille and i are cookin' away the blues with the help of our good buddy t-bone walker pandora station.

Beginnings

Our first night as roomates.

Long live Summer 2010.

All glory to God.

first things first

im currently introducing camille to korean girl music. ha.

"THIS is thy hour O Soul, thy free flight into the wordless,

Away from books, away from art, the day erased, the lesson done,

Thee fully forth emerging, silent, gazing, pondering the themes thou

lovest best.

Night, sleep, and the stars."

- A Clear Midnight

Walt Whitman

Dude

Watch this all and watch it in full screen!

Homesick

I feel so restless on this planet. One thing is becoming more and more clear... I am meant for more than this. Don't get me wrong, I truly love being alive each day. This planet was created so gloriously, and there are so many incredible things and people to interact with... but... I think its just that it all pales in comparison to what I know is really just around the corner. Calling this life is almost a joke. This is such foggy image of what true abundant life will be like. Being face to face with God .. being in His arms... that is life. I can't even imagine it. That is what my heart aches for.

I am so thankful for His presence in my life now. It is absolutely everything to me. If you don't have that now... TRUST ME.. you want it. Seek Him.. ask me questions.

My heart..

..is full of wonder today.

From the Desert:

"This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides


And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames


And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here


And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand


All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship


This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow"

- hillsong

6.7.10

a few things that currently inspire me.

I ♥

HK.

Penny

Me and my niece were just on a walk, and as we were walking and talking about about all sorts of stuff, she looked up at me and said "... i wish you were my sister".

I love how we are becoming close friends on top of being family. I love the deep conversations we are getting to have now that she is older about the Lord and way the world works. She is so smart, and I love seeing how God is already working in her heart and teaching her to love Him. He is really answering my prayers for her. I also love how she is just plain weird. She told me tonight how she wants to be a backwards-skater farmer when she grows up. Shes a pretty tight three year old if you ask me. I am very thankful for her, and I love her with all my heart.

Jesus

Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!