I like guys who don't try so hard.

"Faith does not operate in the realm of the possible. There is no glory for God in that which is humanly possible. Faith begins where man's power ends."

-(George Muller)

Profound

"Lord, you alone are my inheritance, my cup of blessing.
    You guard all that is mine.
 The land you have given me is a pleasant land.
    What a wonderful inheritance!

 I will bless the Lord who guides me;
    even at night my heart instructs me.
 I know the Lord is always with me.
    I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.

 No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice.
    My body rests in safety.
 For you will not leave my soul among the dead
    or allow your holy one to rot in the grave.
 You will show me the way of life,
    granting me the joy of your presence
    and the pleasures of living with you forever."

Psalm 16:5-11

Profound, yet probably more profound than I know.

It's all made up of the little small moments isn't it?

How beautiful; How hopeful above all.

I have spent an unbelievable amount of the last 3 and a half years thinking about Spain

Finals

God has not let me go without anything!!! The Lord is my Shepard, I want for nothing. This week when I have been in need, He provided a:

warm bed
dinner
coffee
breakfast
friend
library
folder
dividers
200 dollars
rain

and more. WOW! Thank you God. Learning to "rely on His unfailing love" (Psalm 33:18). How beautiful it is to have a heavenly FATHER ❤

"And I feel like I'm clingin' to a cloud

I can't understand I get misty just holding your hand"

- Ella Fitzgerald

lol

greeeeaaaatttttt

http://www.thebolditalic.com/articles/6260-dreamy-road-trip-alert-a-guide-to-ojai-ca

This was prayed over me on Sunday:

"Use these hands for redemptive work."

There couldn't be a deeper longing in me!!!!!!! The biggest source of my frustration is trying to be faithful to what God has called me to and feeling like this isn't happening. I have so much pent up passion and dreams to be used for just that, and the places God has me are kind of bleak, silent, grim places of service. Just hearing someone who doesn't really know me pray that was like hearing God say, "I know; I know."

Thank you God. Here I am, fill me and use me as you wish.

I study la lingüística for funnnn hehehqhahahs

#Swimmerproblems

Ohhhh my gosh these are making me die laughing (alone in public...like always lol)

"Their mysterious destination is not as important as their obvious joy in the journey; the characters are not as important as the rollicking language."

Fa reeeeel

This is the coolest ministry I have ever heard of. I receive their email updates and they change my life every time and inspire and stir me at the CORE of my soul! Every email is signed like this: "Until heaven is crowded", and it really makes me think. That's how I want to live and how I want to sign all of my actions, seasons of life, motives and life as a whole.

I haven't felt soooo myself in a long long time. God is doing some deep healing work in me. It's not all clear, and circumstances aren't the loveliest, but I feel like I'm coming home, ya know? Coming home to a lot of things. Simplifying. Being true to who God made me to be. Letting go of things that don't belong to me. Remembering where I came from and who I've been. Visiting the past. Loving what I was made to love. Seeing more clearly who I'm becoming and who God wants me to be. Embracing the present and the beautiful future. Letting go of pretense. Embracing the tiny sweet things in life. Looking to God and to eternity for direction. Seeing who I am in Him. Dreaming again. Loving again. Letting go of judgment. Letting go of control.

All of these works are so in progress. And pain is still a companion, but an appreciated one. Pain seems to serve as a trusty pair of eyeglasses. When you naturally see things a little unclear, pain brings things into proper focus. No one wants to hassle wearing glasses on their face everyday, but its always a worthy trade-off for clear vision.

Anyway, God is with me. I am VERY imperfect, quite broken, yet quite whole and well! Being made more like Jesus. I am so free. So free to be so weak and imperfect. So free to respond to the work of my savior in the world and in myself. So free to rest in His righteousness and His sanctification. Free to embrace and rejoice in His healing and His power over every competing master, and false lover in my life.

I just have this outside hope and joy invading me. It's not from within. Trust me, I've been looking and if it were from within I would have found it by now. It is truly from without. In the midst of daily tasks, sadness, failure, sin, frustration, apathy...hope keeps finding me. It looks me square in the eyes and then to my surprise, it lurches toward me and hugs me tight with a hearty laugh. I suddenly find myself with not only hope in my arms, but excitement and joy! My whole disposition is turned on its head; I'm happy, smiling and hopeful. And its steady -- not fleeting. All while I'm washing dishes at work, driving, doing homework, or checking out at the grocery stores. Days and weeks later... its still with me. Subtle, quite, sometimes under a little pile of clothes, but it's here. It's rooted in truth... and I actually believe it; I actually believe Gods going to make good on His word. Its this grace that's following me; this otherly, powerful grace. I'm being stretched; my weakness, my wrongness is all being confronted and kicked out.. and I like it. I want it to happen and I'm going to keep letting it happen! I'm going to celebrate it and I'm going to keep bragging on my WONDERFUL POWERFUL God. He wins, ok?!

Anyway, in a simple, unexplainable, but very real way, I just feel myself again. I don't know when I stopped feeling that way, but I'm on my way back home (whatever that means) and I'm headed somewhere real good. I'm losing myself and finding God. I'm loosing myself and thus finding my(true)self all the more! Gods kingdom is marvelous, backward, perfect, is coming, is here.

May freedom always be my song and may I share it with others.

Remembering Gods faithfulness in the past shouldn't make us feel like he's neglecting us now. It should remind us of his unchanging faithful character that remains now. It should inspire hope and gratefulness for the now.

Living at home and being a college student is harder and more distracting than dorm life on campus. I am thankful for my family, but 5 years later they still don't understand that I cant sit and talk when I'm trying to finish a paper due in an hour and a half, or that I actually need lights on (they keep turning off all the surrounding lights around me) because I'm running off no sleep and trying to work in an environment that is simulating.

Excuse the bratty rant.

"For me, the only place I feel like I truly belong is in the presence of the Lord. Face to face with the Father. "

It's not where... it's what; it's Who.

"Instead of trying to find where I belong, I should instead try to find Kingdom, because that's where I will find my home. "

I've seen my family display a lot of what family isn't. I love when I see them display what family is.

Creativity

"Someone once said, “Use what is in your hand today to do God’s will and watch him do miracles” God wants to take something seemingly ordinary and redeem it, expand it, multiply it! It brings a fresh wind of faith to the word stewardship. In stewarding what we have, we need faith to see things how God sees them! When we do this, old bread becomes croutons, pallets become a coffee table and a broken man is filled with Life."

-Hansons blog

"Seduction requires technique, if you know how to have a romance then its not a romance, but a seduction-- its not about management or control" - Matt Rawlins

Raw. Organic. REAL. Pure. Natural

"We follow Jesus in a romance—we fail, we learn, we strive, we find freedom, and he leads us deeper into love and we forget about a destination."

The pain of others will always be incomprehensible; not in comparison to your own, but simply because it is not your own. Lay aside judgment.

As graduation from college draws near, I am constantly exploring all 234,526,723 options that I could possibly finally pursue afterward. I have heard a tiny whisper accompanying me that says to not get lost in the future at the cost of neglecting the present. I know its true... but I've just kept on anyway.

Today however, for whatever reason, I was trying to figure out what year it is. After thinking for a few moments, I was almost positive it was 2015. I consulted Google only to find out that it is in fact still 2014. In that moment, I realized that I really do need to slow my roll and give more care to the precious, fleeting here&now. I'm literally living in next year.

Besides, Who knows what good sept, oct, nov and december have to offer that I don't want to miss out on! Even if its nothing exciting, it sure as hell has to be better than what june, july, aug had to offer. There were some gems in there, but dang summer stung. I always love summer best, but for once I warmly welcome fall and winter!!!!!!

Long live the last part of 2014! haha

What she said..

"I'm a little seal girl living in a real world, and it's so hard to get by, cause seals can't even cry".

...except I can cry just fine

the summer of...

greif
loss
mourning
growth
love
romance
dreams
pain
fear
emotion
peace
heaviness
adventure
heartbreak
betrayal
sickness
sadness
passion
new
death
seeking
refining
deceit
joy
confusion
hope
learning
brokenness (the good and bad kind)
family
tears


this summer has been... not typical. but what is normal? life is life. seasons are seasons.

The best way to get your heart broken is meeting tons of beautiful people all around the world and having to say goodbye to them later. It's always worth it though.

 "Y el otoño es para olvidar que amaste."
-Bea


Good thing it's June still :))))

My family can sure make some nasty coffee. They are good at making other things though.

Best song ever

If I could marry re-fried beans.... I might.

This song never gets old :)

Turtle dive is to surfing what courtesy flush is to public-hygiene issues... lifesavers.

Fine procrastination

Friends who...

...call you at way too early o clock to make sure you're up to do your homework (when they don't have to be up yet) make life way sparklier. 

DUDE! I only have to purchase ONE textbook this semester!!!!!!

ANNND.... its only 32 dollars.

This is unprecedented. 

Back in business..hw business. 

It's not a glamorous ministry, but it's what the King has asked me to do! so out of love I embark! 

Help me Jesus. It's all for you.

True grace can easily be abused. Its an absolute scandal. 

Gods love has nothing to do with weakness. It is fierce and greatly to be feared.