In just a few weeks of being done with school, I am feeling myself in ways I completely forgot about; ways I haven't felt myself since I was 19, ways I didn't even know I wasn't feeling myself. I guess I just thought I changed as a person and I let go of those parts of me. I knew those aspects weren't my whole identity and I just tried to trust God with my personality and all of my heart, even if it meant laying aside big parts of me in order to complete that seasons call on my life. I was happy in school....but also not really. I thought I was, but now day by day I am growing soooo much more happy and joyful and myself, and am realizing how brutal that time was. I am meeting a me I thought was long gone.
I am not suggesting any deep conclusions. I am simply just so happy to feel so myself; to get to be who God designed me to be again. Personal characteristics will fade and shine in different seasons of life.. life gets ugly sometimes, and those traits really aren't everything. But again, it just feels so good to feel like me and to live like me....and to feel like i'm living at all. It feels good to come alive and it feels good to be free to plunge into the deep end. Bye bye shallow days.
Thank you Jesus.
