Beatitudes

This is one of the hardest/best nights of my life. It is war on the inside. I can't remember the last time I've felt this much pain. I've spent the last couple years trying to avoid feeling pain... but I don't want to run from it anymore. Yes it hurts, but it's in the pain that Jesus speaks the loudest. He is here for the broken. He is holding me so close. I don't know why I ever want to "have it all together". That is a scary place to be, because that is me relying on me.... and that gets me nowhere every time.

Cry out to God friends. He is listening and waiting and He loves us so dearly. I can't understand why. But it is SO evident...everywhere. I can't ignore it for long....even when I try hard to.

"...and he began to teach them saying:

³"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
⁴Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
⁵Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
⁶Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
⁷Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
⁸Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
⁹Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
¹⁰Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven...."

Jesus is the only source of life, light, joy, and love. I want those things and I want Him.