A Few December Highlights

I was going through the pictures on my phone and came across a few pictures from this month that make me smile. I am so blessed. I have everything I need, I have a family, wonderful friends who inspire me, the opportunities to go on adventures, and more. Here are a few of my favorite moments in December. Most are very simple every day kind of moments.. but those are the best anyway right?

1. (I think this was technically like november...but who cares!) SUPA cool paper mache man me and Jess found in the mountains. That day was a super fun, peacful day of exploring. One of the best adventures i've been on in soo long. We explored the ojai mountains, santa paula mountains, meditation mountain, the hills off the ave, and then ended it with DANK mexican food (corrales) and then ate chips and salsa at her house. FUN!

2. Over all Korean culture indulgence. Steph (Greenslit... i have like a mill best friends named steph) and I ate TONS of korean food and watched endless hours of our fav Kdrama "Oh! My Lady". We actually are learning a lot of the language along with the culture. Its been really fun.. especially on account of the fact that we are both major language/culture nerds.

This top picture was a fun lazy Sunday after a sleepover and a great morning at church.
This was Christmas eve. We both did no shopping until then and so we got up early filo mom'd it up at the camarillo outlets! bahah. it ended up being really fun. we found a cool thrift store too in oxnard! we dressed korean that day (just to make it more fun) and got to try out our new korean language skills for real for the first time!
3. Seattle in general. Washington in general really.
4. This was my favorite Christmas cookie I made. His name is scary-beary. Floyd liked him.
5. This entire train ride. I was overwhelmed with soo much beauty in the span of 36 hours that I could hardly take anymore in or process it.

This first picture is in the mountains in Oregon.

This is somewhere along the coast between Santa Barbara and Lompoc.

Thank you Jesus for every small and huge gift this month. I couldn't ask for more.

"I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth - and truth rewarded me."

-Simone de Beauvoir

Merry Christmas!

Today my mom asked penny what she thinks her future siblings (my sister in law is pregnant again) name should be if its a girl. Penny said iCarly.

kbgrltj,fm.dhfkljhhahhhaakjhhhahhahahahahaahksjdfhjlsbdlbkmg she kills me. i love her so much.

This is her passed out from too much Christmas fun.

"God offers to every mind its choice between truth and repose. Take which you please - you can never have both."

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Washington...

...was most wonderful.

From Heather and Brittany

Long Live the King!!

"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”
Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”
Let those who fear the LORD say:
“His love endures forever.”

When hard pressed, I cried to the LORD;
he brought me into a spacious place.
The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.

It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in humans.
It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in princes.
All the nations surrounded me,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
They surrounded me on every side,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
They swarmed around me like bees,
but they were consumed as quickly as burning thorns;
in the name of the LORD I cut them down.
I was pushed back and about to fall,
but the LORD helped me.
The LORD is my strength and my defense;
he has become my salvation.

Shouts of joy and victory
resound in the tents of the righteous:
The LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!
The LORD’s right hand is lifted high;
the LORD’s right hand has done mighty things!”
I will not die but live,
and will proclaim what the LORD has done.
The LORD has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.
Open for me the gates of the righteous;
I will enter and give thanks to the LORD.
This is the gate of the LORD
through which the righteous may enter.
I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
you have become my salvation.

The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;
the LORD has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.
The LORD has done it this very day;
let us rejoice today and be glad.

LORD, save us!
LORD, grant us success!

Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD.
From the house of the LORD we bless you.
The LORD is God,
and he has made his light shine on us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
up to the horns of the altar.

You are my God, and I will praise you;
you are my God, and I will exalt you.

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever."

Psalm 118.

This is the day the that Lord has made! I will REJOICE and be glad in it!!

OH! Darling

im on hold with amtrak right now, and the waiting song is Oh! Darling (beatles). its just one of those songs thats like the hardest thing EVER to not sing along too... but i cannnt! i feel like the second i do shes gunna pick the line back up! ha.

well the good news is she cant hear me dance! bahha

!!!!!!!!!!

IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! dfjfdsklfjsdlgj yuoyoiyiyoiy oabalallablabalabakdfjodfgupofdigjdoobioobioobiobioyoiyoiyoirakarakakeekeekeebreebreefreeee!!!!

Now to pack and watch an episode of Oh! My Lady.

Check it:

Welllllllllllll.

One last final (cultural anthropology) stands between me and one major deeeep breath (followed by like 6 more... and topped off with a giant sigh of relief... I call it a sweet relief sundae). One day stands between me and an adventure I've always wanted to take (well, one day... and the possibility of death.. or any other unfortunate event occurring..)

Bottom line is IM ALMOST FREE! On that note, I have made a decision. My decision is this: To make the absolute most of this break!!! Seriously. I think these couple weeks off of school are a wonderful gift, and I want to go all out in the areas of fun, relaxation, and refreshment. I want to (or rather, i will) just enjoy being 20 and not carry around the weight of the world (often self inflicted) on my shoulders for a bit. I want to go on adventures, sleep in a lot, spend time with the Lord, make new friends, do embarrassing/ridiculous things that make you laugh so hard that you get scared your gunna die, laugh in general, go to the beach, draw, write, explore, make music, sleeeeeeeep ( i know i already mentioned that one), rest, be myself, sleep, cloud watch, try new things and just BE FREE!

I praise God for where He has me in life even though it is hard and confusing. I am so thankful for everything I have, and for my life (exactly the way it is right now.. all the ups and downs) One thing is for sure...there is a lot of freedom in contentment. There is even more freedom in thankfulness and in praise. Jesus is good, and because of everything he is and everything he has done, my soul is full.

oiyoyyoyooooo. kdfjgfkdjghlwiuh!!!!

R.I.P. Fall Semester. hahahhahas vdfkjlkdjg;aodsigjfkds.f .sd,..d,m?!sd,m. I think this break is coming just in time. I'm going crazy(er).

"The years teach much the days never know."

all i want for christmas is sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

...though ill settle for a trip to seoul.

oii. i can make it. just 2 more days and then i have 36 hours to rest and do NOTHING on a train. sounds like MAGIC.

''Today'' is Worth Two ''Tomorrows''

"Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

Philippians 3

In the midst of my research on the North Korean crisis, I came across this quote from a North Korean defector (newly living free in Seoul) that really made me think about how money controls so many of us, and how we are severely blinded in our pursuit of wealth.

"Shin also struggles to understand why prosperous Koreans in the South seem so uninterested in and unmoved by the suffering of tens of thousands of fellow Koreans living in torment in the North's prisons.

"I don't want to be critical of this country, but I would say that out of the total population of South Korea, only .001 percent has any real understanding of or interest in North Korea," Shin said. "Only a few decades ago, the South Koreans had their own human rights issues. But rapid growth and prosperity has made them forget."

That hits too close to home for me.

nature is AMAZING. Jesus really does use it to chip away a lot of the stone around my heart. it was SUCH a good cloud day. and now its like Singapore pouring!!!! AND thundering anddddddd i have lots of candles lit anddddddd the trees were suuuuuuuper yellow and red and fally andddddd i love living here annnndddddd ive had like a 4 day case of the giggles annnnnnnd im procrastinating on starting a 10 min speech thats due tomorrow anddddddd

and.

need a laugh?

get one here

i have been so heavily saturated with distractions this fall, but i came across something simple i wrote in a journal from last spring that really encouraged me. it is this:

"my distractions are great, but my God is greater."

sometimes i forget the battle is already won. "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." - Jesus (John 16:33)

(On being missional, intentional, and engaging the world:)

" We've got to have more than a one-night-stand with the world. We've got to be in love with them."

-Lazo

"There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.I believe that the most lawless and inordinate loves are less contrary to God’s will than a self-invited and self-protective lovelessness…We shall draw nearer to God, not by trying to avoid the sufferings inherent in all loves, but by accepting them and offering them to Him; throwing away all defensive armour. If our hearts need to be broken, and if He chooses this as a way in which they should break, so be it.What I know about love and believe about love and giving ones heart began in this."

C.S. Lewis

"we are happy here 'cause the wild wind knows what we are"

p.s. this picture does it ZERO justice, but look what a BEAUTIFUL view of a GORGEOUS day I had today out my bedroom window today! birght yellow tree + bright green grass + bright blue sky = too good to be true!!!!!!! (2GuD2BtRoO) bahhaha

we are made for love

dude i am humbled. i just talked to my Ugandan friend samson that i met in hong kong. we havent kept in contact well over the last 2 years or so, but when i talked to him tonight, he was talking about how he is constantly praying for me. it is so humbling to think that someone you hardly know and have met only once, who lives all the way across the world is continuously supporting you in prayer... especially when i dont make much of an effort to maintain our friendship. i am blessed so far beyond what i deserve. i deserve nothing that i have.

thank you Lord.

thank you Samson.

p.s. i want to work for the UN!

"We become more and more cowardly, and call it responsible."

I posted this quote like a year ago, and just stumbled upon it again.

dang.

WOW

"Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

-Matt 5

wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwowowoowowowoowwowowowow. wow. wow .wow. wow dflkjwow.

WE CAN INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN?!?!?!?!??!?!??!!?!?!?!??!?!?!??! I've never really taken this verse in before. DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSDFKjsdlfkjdslkjfldkjvshlznfiunaifewunhierufv

giluenhfriuhnsdifubgvrsiuhfediuhnresid

funhesidfunhsldrighv

dflkjxf!

I have been having a hard time with this... you know.. caring a lot more about what people thinks than what God thinks. But take a LOOK at that reward. Like what???? seriously?

DANG!

Psalm 50

^"1The Mighty One, God the LORD,
speaks and summons the earth
from the rising of the sun to its setting.
²Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty,
God shines forth.

³Our God comes; he does not keep silence;
before him is a devouring fire,
around him a mighty tempest.
⁴ He calls to the heavens above
and to the earth, that he may judge his people:
⁵"Gather to me my faithful ones,
who made a covenant with me by sacrifice!"
⁶The heavens declare his righteousness,
for God himself is judge!

⁷"Hear, O my people, and I will speak;
O Israel, I will testify against you.
I am God, your God.
⁸Not for your sacrifices do I rebuke you;
your burnt offerings are continually before me.
⁹I will not accept a bull from your house
or goats from your folds.
¹⁰For every beast of the forest is mine,
the cattle on a thousand hills.
¹¹ I know all the birds of the hills,
and all that moves in the field is mine.

¹²"If I were hungry, I would not tell you,
for the world and its fullness are mine.
¹³Do I eat the flesh of bulls
or drink the blood of goats?
¹⁴ Offer to God a sacrifice of thanksgiving,
and perform your vows to the Most High,
¹⁵and call upon me in the day of trouble;
I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me."

¹⁶But to the wicked God says:
"What right have you to recite my statutes
or take my covenant on your lips?
¹⁷ For you hate discipline,
and you cast my words behind you.
¹⁸If you see a thief, you are pleased with him,
and you keep company with adulterers.

¹⁹"You give your mouth free rein for evil,
and your tongue frames deceit.
²⁰You sit and speak against your brother;
you slander your own mother’s son.
²¹These things you have done, and I have been silent;
you thought that I was one like yourself.
But now I rebuke you and lay the charge before you.

²²"Mark this, then, you who forget God,
lest I tear you apart, and there be none to deliver!
²³The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me;
to one who orders his way rightly
I will show the salvation of God!"

i HATE when school includes the weekend as part of you vacation (ex. having the 25th-28th off). they like call wed-sun a 5 day vacation as if they're doing you some nice favor or something. HELLOOO!!!! WE ALREADY DONT GO TO SCHOOL ON THE WEEKENDS!

"I Scared Her Out of Her Sugars!!"

Perfect fall wednesday if i do say so myself. Pumpkin pie making, wild hair shaking dance parties, christmas music (pennys choice), korean music (my choice) and MAKEOVERS!

yaayayayayaah.

2NE1

is never not the best.

LiNK

i accidentally created something dellliccious!!! i have been craving soft pretzels for a long time because i luuurv them... and tonight i was like thats it.. im gunna make some gluten free soft pretzles. soooooo i started making them... but the yeast didnt ferment.. and then everything didnt really turn out right.. so i had a big gooey mess of messy mess. i was going to throw it away (very guitily) becuase there was simply nooo turning that into pretzels. HOWEVER. i decided to but the "slodge" into cupcake things and bake them just for kicks since i was gunna get rid of them anyway. sooo i baked them... and then tasted them... and then rejooiicceeddd!!!! the best way to describe them is like an exact mix between a biscuit and bibingka! it had the ammazing texture of bibinka...mostly.. with a hint of biscuit texture on top and biscuit flavor. that prob makes no sense to anyone but i dont care because they are deeeliiishhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im gunna eat them with jam, honey, or ube spread for breakfast! yummmmmm

some days are heavy and dull, but some days are quite the opposite.

today for me has been a day overflowing with inspiration, adventure, joy, and excitement to just be alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im thankful.

Special thanks to:

• Jesus
• Stephanie Waite
• The swap meet (I GOT 3 old national geographics [1920, 1946, and 1954] for 1 dollar each!!!! AND i found out that i can sell my crafty things at the swap meet!!!)
• Jamesy
• The beach
• Dresses
• annnnd pretty weather

i dont know what to be when i grow up... but i do know that i LOVE beautiful (freezing) fall day walks to the post office! its like a pretty and inspiring getaway right in the middle of your day!

This life is going to be over before I know it.

I really need my priorities changed. I am getting really tired of being so self centered, but sometimes I just don't know how to escape my own narrow minded self obsession. I don't just want to think about, or just talk about living everyday like its my last. Talk is so cheap and I say stuff all day that I don't truly mean.

I want to actually live in light of the fact that I may see God face to face before the day is up.

I definitely want to enjoy this life, and have a blast living daily life.. but ... i dont know, i just want to take this life seriously (or rather take eternity seriously enough to take this life seriously).

jhawsdf. I neeeeeed to be changed Jesus! Please give me boldness, joy, love for you, love for people, and the grace to die to myself. Take over pleeeaaase.

Feather Brooks

These are really tacky cell phone pictures of something really cool!

I got feather extensions last night!

They are rooster feathers like this.

I should have got more. New-Age-Hippie-Ojai does have a few rare gems here and there.

i loooooooooooooooooooooove playing mussssiccccc kdsfsldkjfhlskjd!!!!!!!!!!!

Welllllllllllllll...

...i am officially going to washington over christmas break!!

roordas, 35 hour train ride, bellingham, seattle, and CANADA here i come!!!!

CANNNOT WAIT!

i just saw the most incredible shooting star of my life. it was huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and it fell soo slowly. it was unreal. the whole sky was unreal tonight. its insane that the stars and the universe exist.

i just had a wonderful time star watching.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Tell Your Mama, Tell Your Pa

currently broadcasting on procrastination station:

FAVORITE

this was one of my FAVORITE moments of today by far.

annnd i was happy to spend it with one of my FAVORITE people by far. chingy cheng chong.

i hope in 10 years i remember little moments in every day life like this.

math

annoying cat in my room + big speech to write = disaster

i absolutely love how this whole world is filllllled with art. every sound, image, movement.. gah!! its like fuel for the heart. ha.

Dearest Daylight Savings,

"fall back" is the best idea...ever. thank you from the bottom of my heart for the magical mystery extra hour of sleep i get tonight. it makes me giddy and makes my heart bubble with joy.

love always,

Heather.

p.s. could you tell your dirty little friend "spring forward" to repent from its cruel ways and to take time change notes from you?? thannnkkk you.

Saturday Confession:

i like k-pop way too much

Behold. Lake Casitas. ha.

..but seriously, i love where i live. it is absolutely beautiful in a millllion different ways. the beaches (speshhh the northern ones), the mountains, the insane canyon trails, the lake, the stars.... the list goes on

...dear friends that dont live here that i miss: PLEASE COME VISIT

I ♥

Pandapple!!... unashamedly. almost.

the stars are soooo beautiful tonight. what a gift. the Lord didn't have to make the world beautiful.. but He did.

thank you Lord. really.

i reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly wanna spend this summer in either thailand, the philippines, or south korea!!!

I LOVE LAUREN WARGO!

"Gods timing is never too early or too late."

- Lauren Wargo

laziness, procrastination and apathy WILL be the death of me.

;sdlfkj

"...She said, friend
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really I've been learning how to die.."

Ahhhh.... thannnnkkkkkkk you jon foreman. I understand now.

Psalm 73

"¹ Surely God is good to Israel,

to those who are pure in heart.

² But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;

I had nearly lost my foothold.

³ For I envied the arrogant

when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.

⁴ They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong.
⁵ They are free from common human burdens;
they are not plagued by human ills.
⁶ Therefore pride is their necklace;
they clothe themselves with violence.
⁷ From their callous hearts comes iniquity;
their evil imaginations have no limits.
⁸ They scoff, and speak with malice;
with arrogance they threaten oppression.
⁹ Their mouths lay claim to heaven,
and their tongues take possession of the earth.
¹⁰ Therefore their people turn to them
and drink up waters in abundance.
¹¹ They say, “How would God know?
Does the Most High know anything?”

¹² This is what the wicked are like—
always free of care, they go on amassing wealth.

¹³ Surely in vain I have kept my heart pure
and have washed my hands in innocence.
¹⁴ All day long I have been afflicted,
and every morning brings new punishments.

¹⁵ If I had spoken out like that,
I would have betrayed your children.
¹⁶ When I tried to understand all this,
it troubled me deeply
¹⁷ till I entered the sanctuary of God;
then I understood their final destiny.

¹⁸ Surely you place them on slippery ground;
you cast them down to ruin.
¹⁹ How suddenly are they destroyed,
completely swept away by terrors!
²⁰ They are like a dream when one awakes;
when you arise, Lord,
you will despise them as fantasies.

²¹ When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
²² I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

²³ Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
²⁴ You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
²⁶ My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

²⁷ Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
²⁸ But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds."

"And no one needs to know

How scared we are tonight

Would you let me see the world

Behind your eyes?"

"Yah this world is where I breathe

Let it never be called home"

bubz

i also made a cute bow bracelet!!

Konichiwaaaa!!

I made a Domo Kun paper bag puppet!

O to grace how great a debtor  daily I'm constrained to be!  Let thy goodness, like a fetter,  bind my wandering heart to thee.  Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,  prone to leave the God I love;  here's my heart, O take and seal it,  seal it for thy courts above.

sdfgljobfkdgjlkfmklcmdglkdbfmdgblkm bv ldrkym!!!!@Kefjds

Cheers

"Cheers to the furrows on our brow

To each hard-won victory

Cheers to the losses that grew us up

Killed our pride, and filled our cup"

I need some mishpaha pronto

Love, Where is Your Fire?

"Love, where is your fire? I've been sitting here smoking away
making signals with sticks and odd ends and bits, but there's no sign of a flame
Imposters have been passing, offering good-feeling glow
but I'm holding out for what you are about - an inferno that burns to the bone
some urge me to be temperate, lukewarm will never do."

alright.

i am coming to terms with the fact that this season of life entails more questions than answers, more wondering than knowing, more feeling unsure than feeling confident, more trail and error than getting it right, more possibilities than actual opportunities, and is more about journey than specific direction or destination.

im ok with it because i know truth. i am confident in Jesus and His Word as truth because i experience it tangibly everyday. in the same way i believe in gravity as truth because everyday that i drop my cell phone.. it falls. except gravity doesn't have love and interaction the way Jesus does. gravity -- does not have grace.

in all my questions, wandering, wondering, doubt, trial and error, and journey the last two weeks, i started looking for truth everywhere. i started looking for truth in the world. it felt good and free for like a day... but then it lead to internal disaster. i experienced more confusion, anxiety, and fear than i have in a lonnnnnngggg time. or ever really. my soul felt like it weighed a thousand pounds. it was a cheap cheap imitation of freedom. in the end i wasnt even searching anymore.. i was just stuck.. captive to my own mind and its endless cycles.

i cried out to God though. and He heard.. and is answering. He is filling me with His presence, and with what He says is true about the way life works. i happily accept it. as i test it out... it proves itself true over and over and over and over. The Word of God NEVER fails me. There is so much about everything that i don't understand ...but its ok.

im done trying to pretend i understand everything. and i am DONE preforming for God and trying to earn gold stars for my own meaningless imaginary life chart.

however, i am not done wondering, wandering, exploring, asking, trying, and failing. i am just beginning that. i have no idea what tomorrow holds...OR if ill even be alive tomorrow. really.

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you"

i am so content with His presence. i dont deserve it. it is life to my bones.

Major

FAIL!

and its only 8 am.

i am being taught. grown. stretched.

it hurts, and sometimes feels kinda imprisoning...yet it feels kinda feels good, and i think i am on the road to freedom.

"Nature testifies about God, but it takes Man to testify about God's Grace and Love"

(thanks myles)

i feel like i am constantly doing an extreme balancing act between thinking about the BIG picture, and focusing on the most basic tiny parts of life. i feel like im always mentally too far into one of those areas.

ohhhhhh wellll. hahahaha. i guess this is growing up?

p.s. WHY the heck is josh ritter so charming???

"just pin your heartbeat up against my

heartbeat and you'll see how well we rhyme."

-bright smile

"Morning sneaks up on me

Shines on my sheets

Waking me into my favourite dream"

Eritrea...

.. is a country in Africa I have never heard of. There is so much I don't know about the world I live in.

My mind has been blown over and over again lately. My perspectives on life are being constantly changed, and I am feeling smaller every day.

This is one of the best seasons of life I have ever been in. I love learning.

hahahha yessssss

yes

Mega grateful.

lets just be realistic here

2Kandid4lyfeee

Bahahahahaha. Oh man. I love this girl.

:)

starry, crisp, rain scented folk.

Fotos Viejos

Awww. I love these. My sister posted some old halloween pictures her, my brother and I.

sooo funnnny.

"..If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy.."

I have the BEST FRIENDS EVER!!!!!!!

Thannnnnkkkyyy you Lord. Thank you, thank you, thankkkkkk you.

Lessons of the Week:

1. God is in control; not me, not anyone else. He is in control of my heart, my mind, my will, the people around me.. EVERYTHING.

2. I am human.

What a load off.

I think one of the biggest ways the enemy tries to get me distracted and discouraged is with a false sense of urgency. Like Ill have plenty of time to send an encouraging email, or pray for someone, or think about something important, but ill feel this big rush rush rush tug...like a voice saying you don't have time for this!!!

Whats funny is I never feel that way when I'm wasting time with unimportant things..

I don't want to rush through my life. I want to be diligent with my time in a way where I can guiltlessly enjoy the simple pleasures in life. The still, calm, sweet moments.

P.S. Today is one of those days where I woke up sooo stoked to be alive. I can't stop smiling or laughing. I feel creepy because I'm like driving around cracking up by myself haha. I just have so much to be happy about. It is really unbelievable how blessed I am. I do not deserve any of the incredible gifts I have. One thing that I am especially grateful for today is people. I LOVE people!!!!!!! The mail lady smiled at me today and it meant so much to me to share that moment with her. Me and my mom shared a salad and an iced tea and that was really special too. I have wonderful friends sending me encouraging texts all day. I have a mom, a dad, a brother and a sister!!!! mannnnnnnnnnnnnn. I don't deserve any of this. Thank you Lord for your good gifts!!

P.P.S. I am on a major tea kick this week.

"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"

One human I truly aspire to be like.

p.s. is it ok to have a crush on Dr. King....cause i think i do. haha.

AAHHHhh......

The Lord has brought me out of a season of me trying to preform for Him all the time... and brought me into a season of intimacy with Him.

whew. sweet relief.

Forget Your Fears

I woke up and the Lord spoke this passage to me. .... it.. is ... sooooo.. gooooddd! He calms all my fears, and knows my deepest desires. I have nothing to fear. I love that this is a pslam from a guy who didn't do things perfectly at all... I love that the whole bible is full of idiots (it means theres hope for me!).

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

² He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,

³ he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness

for his name's sake.

⁴ Even though I walk

through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil,

for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me

all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."

This makes me think of a picture that I have been looking at over and over. I got it from camilio a long time ago and it has been serving me well.

I am not my own.

Poetics of Sound 1954-1959

Once again my good buddy M-Davey comes through.

Miles Davis is very conducive to homework activity haha.

Journaling

I just found these two quotes about journaling that perfectly describe the essence of what it is to me:

"You never know what you will learn till you start writing. Then you discover truths you never knew existed."

"To me, the greatest pleasure of writing is not what it's about, but the inner music that words make."