dude i am humbled. i just talked to my Ugandan friend samson that i met in hong kong. we havent kept in contact well over the last 2 years or so, but when i talked to him tonight, he was talking about how he is constantly praying for me. it is so humbling to think that someone you hardly know and have met only once, who lives all the way across the world is continuously supporting you in prayer... especially when i dont make much of an effort to maintain our friendship. i am blessed so far beyond what i deserve. i deserve nothing that i have.

thank you Lord.

thank you Samson.

p.s. i want to work for the UN!

"We become more and more cowardly, and call it responsible."

I posted this quote like a year ago, and just stumbled upon it again.

dang.

WOW

"Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

-Matt 5

wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwowowoowowowoowwowowowow. wow. wow .wow. wow dflkjwow.

WE CAN INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN?!?!?!?!??!?!??!!?!?!?!??!?!?!??! I've never really taken this verse in before. DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSDFKjsdlfkjdslkjfldkjvshlznfiunaifewunhierufv

giluenhfriuhnsdifubgvrsiuhfediuhnresid

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dflkjxf!

I have been having a hard time with this... you know.. caring a lot more about what people thinks than what God thinks. But take a LOOK at that reward. Like what???? seriously?

DANG!

Psalm 50

^"1The Mighty One, God the LORD,
speaks and summons the earth
from the rising of the sun to its setting.
²Out of Zion, the perfection of beauty,
God shines forth.

³Our God comes; he does not keep silence;
before him is a devouring fire,
around him a mighty tempest.
⁴ He calls to the heavens above
and to the earth, that he may judge his people:
⁵"Gather to me my faithful ones,
who made a covenant with me by sacrifice!"
⁶The heavens declare his righteousness,
for God himself is judge!

⁷"Hear, O my people, and I will speak;
O Israel, I will testify against you.
I am God, your God.
⁸Not for your sacrifices do I rebuke you;
your burnt offerings are continually before me.
⁹I will not accept a bull from your house
or goats from your folds.
¹⁰For every beast of the forest is mine,
the cattle on a thousand hills.
¹¹ I know all the birds of the hills,
and all that moves in the field is mine.

¹²"If I were hungry, I would not tell you,
for the world and its fullness are mine.
¹³Do I eat the flesh of bulls
or drink the blood of goats?
¹⁴ Offer to God a sacrifice of thanksgiving,
and perform your vows to the Most High,
¹⁵and call upon me in the day of trouble;
I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me."

¹⁶But to the wicked God says:
"What right have you to recite my statutes
or take my covenant on your lips?
¹⁷ For you hate discipline,
and you cast my words behind you.
¹⁸If you see a thief, you are pleased with him,
and you keep company with adulterers.

¹⁹"You give your mouth free rein for evil,
and your tongue frames deceit.
²⁰You sit and speak against your brother;
you slander your own mother’s son.
²¹These things you have done, and I have been silent;
you thought that I was one like yourself.
But now I rebuke you and lay the charge before you.

²²"Mark this, then, you who forget God,
lest I tear you apart, and there be none to deliver!
²³The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me;
to one who orders his way rightly
I will show the salvation of God!"

i HATE when school includes the weekend as part of you vacation (ex. having the 25th-28th off). they like call wed-sun a 5 day vacation as if they're doing you some nice favor or something. HELLOOO!!!! WE ALREADY DONT GO TO SCHOOL ON THE WEEKENDS!

"I Scared Her Out of Her Sugars!!"

Perfect fall wednesday if i do say so myself. Pumpkin pie making, wild hair shaking dance parties, christmas music (pennys choice), korean music (my choice) and MAKEOVERS!

yaayayayayaah.

2NE1

is never not the best.

LiNK

i accidentally created something dellliccious!!! i have been craving soft pretzels for a long time because i luuurv them... and tonight i was like thats it.. im gunna make some gluten free soft pretzles. soooooo i started making them... but the yeast didnt ferment.. and then everything didnt really turn out right.. so i had a big gooey mess of messy mess. i was going to throw it away (very guitily) becuase there was simply nooo turning that into pretzels. HOWEVER. i decided to but the "slodge" into cupcake things and bake them just for kicks since i was gunna get rid of them anyway. sooo i baked them... and then tasted them... and then rejooiicceeddd!!!! the best way to describe them is like an exact mix between a biscuit and bibingka! it had the ammazing texture of bibinka...mostly.. with a hint of biscuit texture on top and biscuit flavor. that prob makes no sense to anyone but i dont care because they are deeeliiishhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im gunna eat them with jam, honey, or ube spread for breakfast! yummmmmm

some days are heavy and dull, but some days are quite the opposite.

today for me has been a day overflowing with inspiration, adventure, joy, and excitement to just be alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im thankful.

Special thanks to:

• Jesus
• Stephanie Waite
• The swap meet (I GOT 3 old national geographics [1920, 1946, and 1954] for 1 dollar each!!!! AND i found out that i can sell my crafty things at the swap meet!!!)
• Jamesy
• The beach
• Dresses
• annnnd pretty weather

i dont know what to be when i grow up... but i do know that i LOVE beautiful (freezing) fall day walks to the post office! its like a pretty and inspiring getaway right in the middle of your day!

This life is going to be over before I know it.

I really need my priorities changed. I am getting really tired of being so self centered, but sometimes I just don't know how to escape my own narrow minded self obsession. I don't just want to think about, or just talk about living everyday like its my last. Talk is so cheap and I say stuff all day that I don't truly mean.

I want to actually live in light of the fact that I may see God face to face before the day is up.

I definitely want to enjoy this life, and have a blast living daily life.. but ... i dont know, i just want to take this life seriously (or rather take eternity seriously enough to take this life seriously).

jhawsdf. I neeeeeed to be changed Jesus! Please give me boldness, joy, love for you, love for people, and the grace to die to myself. Take over pleeeaaase.

Feather Brooks

These are really tacky cell phone pictures of something really cool!

I got feather extensions last night!

They are rooster feathers like this.

I should have got more. New-Age-Hippie-Ojai does have a few rare gems here and there.

i loooooooooooooooooooooove playing mussssiccccc kdsfsldkjfhlskjd!!!!!!!!!!!

Welllllllllllllll...

...i am officially going to washington over christmas break!!

roordas, 35 hour train ride, bellingham, seattle, and CANADA here i come!!!!

CANNNOT WAIT!

i just saw the most incredible shooting star of my life. it was huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and it fell soo slowly. it was unreal. the whole sky was unreal tonight. its insane that the stars and the universe exist.

i just had a wonderful time star watching.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,

and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Do not cast me from your presence

or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Tell Your Mama, Tell Your Pa

currently broadcasting on procrastination station:

FAVORITE

this was one of my FAVORITE moments of today by far.

annnd i was happy to spend it with one of my FAVORITE people by far. chingy cheng chong.

i hope in 10 years i remember little moments in every day life like this.

math

annoying cat in my room + big speech to write = disaster

i absolutely love how this whole world is filllllled with art. every sound, image, movement.. gah!! its like fuel for the heart. ha.

Dearest Daylight Savings,

"fall back" is the best idea...ever. thank you from the bottom of my heart for the magical mystery extra hour of sleep i get tonight. it makes me giddy and makes my heart bubble with joy.

love always,

Heather.

p.s. could you tell your dirty little friend "spring forward" to repent from its cruel ways and to take time change notes from you?? thannnkkk you.

Saturday Confession:

i like k-pop way too much

Behold. Lake Casitas. ha.

..but seriously, i love where i live. it is absolutely beautiful in a millllion different ways. the beaches (speshhh the northern ones), the mountains, the insane canyon trails, the lake, the stars.... the list goes on

...dear friends that dont live here that i miss: PLEASE COME VISIT

I ♥

Pandapple!!... unashamedly. almost.

the stars are soooo beautiful tonight. what a gift. the Lord didn't have to make the world beautiful.. but He did.

thank you Lord. really.

i reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllly wanna spend this summer in either thailand, the philippines, or south korea!!!

I LOVE LAUREN WARGO!

"Gods timing is never too early or too late."

- Lauren Wargo

laziness, procrastination and apathy WILL be the death of me.

;sdlfkj

"...She said, friend
All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really I've been learning how to die.."

Ahhhh.... thannnnkkkkkkk you jon foreman. I understand now.

Psalm 73

"¹ Surely God is good to Israel,

to those who are pure in heart.

² But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;

I had nearly lost my foothold.

³ For I envied the arrogant

when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.

⁴ They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong.
⁵ They are free from common human burdens;
they are not plagued by human ills.
⁶ Therefore pride is their necklace;
they clothe themselves with violence.
⁷ From their callous hearts comes iniquity;
their evil imaginations have no limits.
⁸ They scoff, and speak with malice;
with arrogance they threaten oppression.
⁹ Their mouths lay claim to heaven,
and their tongues take possession of the earth.
¹⁰ Therefore their people turn to them
and drink up waters in abundance.
¹¹ They say, “How would God know?
Does the Most High know anything?”

¹² This is what the wicked are like—
always free of care, they go on amassing wealth.

¹³ Surely in vain I have kept my heart pure
and have washed my hands in innocence.
¹⁴ All day long I have been afflicted,
and every morning brings new punishments.

¹⁵ If I had spoken out like that,
I would have betrayed your children.
¹⁶ When I tried to understand all this,
it troubled me deeply
¹⁷ till I entered the sanctuary of God;
then I understood their final destiny.

¹⁸ Surely you place them on slippery ground;
you cast them down to ruin.
¹⁹ How suddenly are they destroyed,
completely swept away by terrors!
²⁰ They are like a dream when one awakes;
when you arise, Lord,
you will despise them as fantasies.

²¹ When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
²² I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

²³ Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
²⁴ You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
²⁶ My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

²⁷ Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
²⁸ But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds."

"And no one needs to know

How scared we are tonight

Would you let me see the world

Behind your eyes?"

"Yah this world is where I breathe

Let it never be called home"

bubz